Yesterday

I'm sure that we could all see this coming, but because I was feeling so good on my foot, I ended up overdoing it. I thought I was taking things slow, and technically I suppose I was, but I think I spent too much time walking and standing, because this morning when I woke up, I was incredibly tired and sore. So I'm sacked out on the sofa, again, and wishing I could do some of the things I need to do around here without exhausting myself.

I really struggle with the practice of just resting. For some reason, I feel like I need to be doing something at all times. This goes back pretty far as I recall a friend telling me years ago, "Erin, you are a human being, not a human doing" in an attempt to get me to take it easy on myself. It didn't work.

So, even though I know I need to rest, I am restless and resentful.

What I Did Yesterday, by Erin Donohoe

1. Took Magnus out in the back yard to toss a ball around with him while I let my foot out of the boot and enjoyed the sunshine.
2. Trimmed the high grass in the front yard with a shears to (hopefully!) appease the Norwood lawn Nazis.
3. Washed and dried 2 loads of laundry which required 3 trips up and down the basement stairs.
4. Showered, an actual standing-up shower during which I was moving slow as molasses so as not to slip and fall.
5. Trip with Lynn to McDonalds, The Home Depot and Target. I got to use the Target Cruiser but The Home Depot doesn't have one so I had to hobble around there in the space boot. Plus, for some reason, we ended up parked far away and that was just extra steps for me.
6. Fixed the toilet handle that broke last Sunday (when it broke, I fell into a spiral of despair about the state of my life, but then I took one of those Percocets and everything seemed OK again).
6. Got out my headlamp so I could look into the clogged shower drain, but then realised that the batteries in the lamp had leaked for some reason (any ideas why?) and had to carefully clean out the battery acid residue with Qtips (thank goodness I had stocked up on them during the Target trip).
7. Decided to finally replace the aerator in the bathroom faucet because it sprays me when I turn on the water and I had a new low-flow aerator I got from Duke Energy.
8. While I was on a roll, I decided to replace the kitchen aerator, too.
9. Realised that I am out of AAA batteries so I still can't look into that clogged drain. Argh. I got a drain snake at HD and I really want to use it on this clog.

So, yeah, this is exactly how I end up overdoing it and yet not finishing any projects, because each thing I do reminds me of some other thing I want to do and my ADD gets the best of me and I end up going around in circles all day long.

But when I sit and try to rest, I end up falling asleep (I think I have a 40-minute maximum for sitting still before I fall asleep, because the same thing happens when I try to watch a movie, even in the theatre, unless it is a comedy). So that's why I am so frustrated now.